Have you ever felt like your dreams are too big and you just don’t know how ‘you in the life you live now’ can achieve it?
You might think of the vision – so bright, so luminous, so extraordinary – but suddenly you’re feeling like: ‘who am I to do that, who am I to pull that off, am I enough, will people follow me, will people desire me’ and suddenly we collapse our possibility around the dream.
Suddenly we feel like the distance between where we are now and where we want to be is just too big.
What happens is we move into a state of control because we’re thinking the only way things get created in the world is if we map them out, if we plan them, if we can guarantee that we can put steps in place to make something happen.
We look at moving around the physical matter, the physical energy of this life and we look at what we need to do, the effort we need to make, to make something true.
But when you’re looking at this huge, beautiful dream, there isn’t enough physical energy or enough physical evidence in the 3D that shows you that it is possible. Because the dream comes from somewhere else. The dream is not found in your comfort zone, the dream cannot be moulded and prepared and controlled so that you feel good the whole time. It’s meant to stretch you. It’s meant to humble you.
The dream is meant to invoke you to become more than you ever thought you could be. To embody the magic of life and the mystery of creation. To be in awe and curiosity as you are compelled into a future you could never dream of.
So when you’re looking out at your dreams from who you are now, the roles that you play, the identity you’ve held onto…when you’re looking at your dreams from who you were in the past, thinking that this is all you can be, then you’re not actually creating dreams, you’re expending energy and investing your life force in staying the same.
You’re applying a huge amount of energy in trying to hold the identities you’ve always held to stay safe, to stay in the comfort zone and control your experiences and minimise your pain.
But your dream says ‘that’s not who you’re meant to be as a leader, that’s not who you’re meant to be as a woman or change-maker’. You’re meant to be cracked open, you’re meant to be surrendered, you’re meant to be wild.
You’re meant to go where the magic is without knowing what’s going to happen.
The most exquisite, pleasurable dreams are meant to be out of control. They’re meant to be so big and beautiful, that you feel inadequate. Your humanity is meant to be stretched, your vulnerability is meant to be turned up, your mind is meant to be broken open because you literally can’t figure it out with your mind.
I know when I’m in the biggest creative flow with my possibilities, is when I’m allowing myself to be messy. When I’m humble and not trying to be perfect. When I’m asking higher forces to show me the way. When I’m letting myself called forth and pulled through. When I’m choosing intimacy and connection and love with extraordinary humans, rather than fame or popularity or showing a certain polished or perfect image.
When I am undone by the dream, then I know the dream is alive. Because vulnerability is a power.
Humility, the softness of saying ‘I don’t know how this is going to happen, but I am not in control’. Imagine that?! We’re not in control.
Ponder how much your need for control is actually downsizing your dreams. Your need to have certainty is the way you hold yourself back. What if it wasn’t about your physical circumstance, what if it wasn’t about your desirability, or how popular you are, or how you’ve been rejected in the past, but what if it was about your capacity to say yes to something more.
And your tolerance for discomfort and your choice to commit to something truly meaningful, even when you don’t feel enough. Especially when you don’t feel enough.
And you can find those moments and learn to breathe into them, and let your discomfort be an erotic energy of creation. Let your uncertainty be the moment you say yes to surrender and let the dream create you.
Energetically, our dreams are in our soul state. Our dreams are in the place where there is so much energy and magic, but also so much mystery. So if you think you can map it all out and plan your next five years and know exactly what’s going to happen, then its likely you’re not in the soul state of the dream.
You’re not being undone by your dreams and being called forth into your magnificent self. Which doesn’t have to be about ego. It can be about service.
